i'm shaking

i'm so scared about everything.

last monday

before college starts.
I'm pretty scared.
I hope i'm smart enough.
I'm really excited about meeting new people
and starting my degree and whatnot,
but I'm starting to really miss people back home.
I wish I had spent more time with certain girls.
Now i'm all the way in dallas, so I won't ever be able to start over.
I have my own apartment that I share with three other girls.
They all seem reasonably nice,
but it turns out
i'm living with corey now.
It's so exciting!
We decorated our apartment and its so perfect.
I'm so happy with thim.
I hope everything works out
and I hope I make a friend I can open up to.
I feel semi isolated.
AH WELL.
We'll see how it works out

In dallas

Its been a year since i've written in this.
Corey is in class and i'm bored at the apartment.
I've been cleaning all day to keep myself busy.
I like feeling like a housewife.
I love cooking and cleaning and setting up our love nest.
Its odd, but I can't help it.
I'm starting college soon, which I'm also very excited about.
It seems like everything is coming together perfectly.
I do feel lonely sometimes though.
I don't talk to any of my old friends.
I'm not sad about most of them
they weren't good people.
But, sometimes I wish I had a girl friend again.
I'm all alone in dallas.
I guess i'll figure it out.
In the meantime I still have max, our amazing chinchilla :]
ayayay

new york cares

I miss Jeannette
time seems to be passing me by while i'm over here
New York is amazing in the same way that it is horrible
I can't tell if I like San Francisco better or not
I just know that Paris is still the ultimate.
Sami and I are much better
we get along perfectly
He still isn't quite J material
I have a sinking feeling that as each day passes, she forgets me a little.
:[
I'm sure when I come back everything will be splendid like it used to be.
I wish I found film for her camera
I went to 10 different places searching for some.
That and I never find time for our journal
I wish I had more time to write in it
but I dont feel that awful because I devote a big chunk of my time of finding ways to bring back NY :]
I'm really just looking forward to coming back home
I have so much summer left
and I want everything to be perfect.
love love love love love,
Anna

I just ate some cold new york pizza

Granted it was dominoes
It still was exciting.
Watching south park in my sweatpants.
Sami and I are fighting
Or at least ignoring each other
But I'm sure we'll get over it.
I miss jeannette
I'm counting down the days until I can give her my present.
I'm picking it up tomorrow.
Today we went to central park and it made New York for me.
It was gorgeous.
I'll be home soon and we'll see how that works out.
I miss you and
I loveyou
-Anna

j

I don't think anyone makes me happier.
She makes me laugh
She's quick and clever and gorgeous
And absolutely original.
At two in the morning
There is nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than in my car with her
Laughing and singing.
I love her.
She's my new life.

With our hands in the streets of Seattle

I feel like crying
I miss J so much.
Its so unreal.
Its bizarre how quickly we fell for each other.
I don't know.
I guess its one of those soul mate things.
Ya dig?
I don't know.
I feel like shit without her.
I've ever started listening to her acoustic indie stuff,
which is completely weird for me.
meh.
I'll see her soon
and we'll go walking.
Yesterday evening I picked up Sarah and saw her for the first time in a month.
We went to Dairy Queen so she could see Rolie's shaved head
and Jc and Adam happened to be there.
It felt like we were in a little rural town with a Dairy Queen hot spot.
After I dropped her off and Jc, Adam, and I hung out at the park and waited for Rolie to get off work.
When he got home we left to get food and cigarettes and ran into Mike on the way.
We ended up going to his house until four am.
I really enjoyed talking to Mike.
We never really singled each other out for conversation, but I really enjoyed his.

Now i'm just waited to go to Rolie's and we're all going to see WallE.
I made chocolate covered strawberries.
The day is lingering, but it will get better.

ilj
ciao ciao ciao